Well hello there tumblr! I’m on my way home from a fabulous weekend in OC! And I shall tell you wat happened there with monsieur Montana! Welp first off we went tanning and he laid next to yours truly and everytime I flipped over he grabbed my hand and held it. He also kept looking at me wen he thought I wasn’t paying attention. Then on the board walk he made it his job to make sure I was warm and he cuddled with me the whole night and held my hand and held me and kissed me on my face or my head. He was all over me and he initiated everything and everytime I wasn’t near him he came over and held me or called me over to him so he could. And he gave me the longest hug that night too. I reeeeeeaaaaally like him and everyone thinks he likes me too! I hope so…

“I’m falling apart, why can’t you see that?”

So here I am minding my business trying to forget you and you find some way to wiggle into my life and throw me off balance. Let’s see, first of all I haven’t talked to you since the begginning of March. Secondly you don’t text me, call me, or even Facebook me. So why in tf would you post a picture of me saying you miss me. Like…seriously…you have got to be kidding me. I would kill to know what exactly you were thinking when your idiot of a brain told you to do that. And then that’s all you have to say to me? I would love to hit you right about now. I’ve been mulling this over ever since I saw the stupid post and I bet you knew that would happen didn’t you? You always could read me like a book. I don’t even know why I keep thinking about it either but its driving me insane! I guess some part of me still cares about you. But only a part. Incidentally today’s your birthday. You’ll probably never see this but happy birthday anyways…gosh I don’t even know what’s going on in my head right now.

So today was such a great day! I got to hang out with Montana and we got really close ;). I swear he almost kissed me a few times but he kept backing off…I wonder why? Oh Wells anyways we kept wrestling with each other and joking around and he kept holding me and making sure I was near him ^_^. It was so hard trying not to kiss him but I managed. He even called me his good luck charm. This is not good though because my plan of not liking him completely flew out of the window. *wistful sigh* this would be easier if I didn’t like him so much…Welp too late now, I guess we’ll have to just see what happens.
Ciao Bellas